Power

The more I think about it, the more I am completely convinced that the most serious problems we face in the 21st century are around the question of power. How is distorts, manipulates, undermines, and fucks up otherwise legitimate and decent efforts.

On so many questions - war and peace, international security, law and order, criminal and civil justice, the economy, wealth equity, universal health insurance, education, psychology and individual and general mental health, language, communication, and honest discussion, race and gender issues, sexuality, even medical issues and the sciences - power undermines honest thought, discussion, and debate and honest resolution of long-standing issues.

It's not just that power corrupts. It confuses us. All of us. It makes everything hazy. And we all have to pretend like it's all so much clearer or that we understand it all more than any of us actually really do. It creates all sorts of tragedy with many of left with so many questions about whether such tragedy is really worthwhile, largely because it does so before a more open and honest and decent discussion can sort such matters out, which is exactly what ends up more genuinely sorting those matters out, over time, only after much distortion and confusion created by resorting to power to try to resolve the same problems.

It creates an environment of fear that is generally far worse than the original vices or problems it is meant to resolve. It is bad for everyone and their mental health as well as substantively making it more difficult, often to sort out and resolve problems. It makes bad choices and routes all the more tempting. It causes all kinds of tragedies and then doubles up to make it very difficult for those responsible for those tragedies to apologize or take responsibility.

It distorts our lives with fear and ugliness that then reifies itself as the reason for our need for it.

Power fucks us up in very serious ways, is the truth. And then it pretends that it is the fucked up nature of a world that it often creates is all the more reason we need it. It is like an abusive husband rationalizing his relationship with us. And we are gullible wives to its rationalizations.

And it is never satisfied until is has trapped all of us in its clutches, and even then it is never satisfied. And that is why it corrupts, and why absolute versions of it corrupt absolutely.

Because it often creates and amplifies the very fear that makes it hard for those who covet it to sleep without it.

Power fucks us up. All of us. And it has my soul sick with despair that we will never give it up.

And the only reality that gives me hope is that we always seem to fumble forward. Always. Even when we move backwards, as I believe we have in the last 7-8 years. Even as we fuck up our own and one anothers' lives with it. Even as we make it very, very difficult for people of good faith to believe in the world and the liberal democracies where it is still coveted so much.

Hope lies in the fact that we always fumble forward, eventually, even as we cling to the ugliness and abuses and bullshit - the power - for far too long.

That hope needs to become reality for even hope to be real. Perhaps even I, as well as my children, might be able to see that come to fruition.