Preserving peoples' feelings...

I've been debating a little bit, today...

If I should just say/write things that I'm feeling/saying at the moment...which seems more authentic, much of the time...

Or if I should clean them up, more...

If you catch this blog at various posting times...you'll see that I clean up what I say quite a bit, actually...I don't like to hurt peoples' feelings, if I can avoid it...so I do all kinds of shit to preserve peoples' feelings...

I'm often more generous with people, by far, than they deserve:):):)...

I try to say things as nicely as possible...

I try to be sensitive about how people might feel being criticized publicly...

I take most people far more seriously than they take themselves...and what they say far more seriously than they think about what they say before they say it...

I don't know...I like "the big me"...

But I also know that I can trust someone when I can be more honest with them...and not sugarcoat everything I say/write...

Much of what I think of as being a grown up comes from conversations with adults when I was young when their guards were down, like this...rather than when they were being so nice...

But I also know that most people are much more fragile than me:):):)...and so I don't want to hurt their feelings more than I'm sure they can handle, most of the time...

I don't know...I don't know if it really matters much...

I just want to both be as decent as possible to folks...

And to show more honestly my real self...without editing:):):)...the clumsy, human, real me...without so much of the bullshit...

I just also don't want to hurt people...

Anyway...I'm just thinking about it...no real conclusions on the matter:):):)...

Have a good night, everyone...

Ben