Why the fucked up assymetry in the world?...
Do the dumbasses and the cowards always determine how things go in life?...
I do think that individuals matter...though the ones that really matter usually get treated like total shit, I'm learning...
But why is it that dumbasses and cowards have such a fuckin' hard time following the lead of their betters?...
Me...if I think someone is better than me at something, I'll generally follow their lead...at least at whatever I think they are better at doing...at least if there are no other examples or options available...
And I have as low a bullshit relationship with people as possible...
Meaning...in my heart...I don't follow anything you do until I trust you know what you're doing...everything else is just a compromise until I get away from you...which will be as soon as possible, generally...
But the no bullshit conversation would go like this...
"You know what you're doing better, I'll follow you more...and still double-check to make sure that I think you know what you're doing...and still look for better models and examples to follow until I'm confident that yours is the one I trust most...and even then it's not absolute...it's only at those things I think you do better"...
"And if I stop following you...it's because I think you are either completely full of shit...or full of shit enough that you don't have much, substantially, to offer me any more"...
"And generally I still hang out with you...unless you become an utterly worthless asshole trying to impose your will when you aren't good enough to back up your ideas with a better example and better real life experience to demonstrate that you have better ideas...or at least a better ability to engage the conversation that humbly acknowledges when you don't know what you're doing"...
I know many, many, many, many people in that latter category...self-deluded assholes who what to assert their entitlement to my trust without earning it...
The technical name for that category of person, I believe, is worthless...and it's the most annoying quality I can discover in a person, I think, other than murderer or terrorist or such...
I would...once...once in my entire fuckin' life...
Meet someone who was confident in themselves and their ideas for good reason...because they know what they're doing...and when they don't...because they have the balls to ask themselves the hard questions and admit when they don't...
Just once I'd like to meet a person like that...it's such a fuckin' rarity...
And the reason why I want people like that in my life...and why I get tired of people not like that in my life...
Is because I get easily bored of the bullshit...
There are a million times when I want to tell someone...
"Who gives a shit what you think when you clearly no fuckin' clue about what you're talking about"...or..."Who's gives a shit what you're talkinga about when you are clearly bullshitting me and yourself"...
But I don't...because I'm a nice guy...and I just let people go on in their clear self-delusion...until and if I feel comfortable calling bullshit...
Maybe that's why so many adults feel the need to compel others to follow their wishes...
Because they are so fuckin' full of shit...that their scared that noone will want to follow them, otherwise...
And you know what I have to say about such bullshit?...
Pathetic...you fuckin' loser...
Get better and people will follow you're example, more...
And bet that it has something to do with them not trusting that you are as competent as you need to be to earn that trust...
And too fuckin' bad until you get that competent...
Earn it...
Love,
Ben
