I have lost all trust in the bullies and the scandal-mongers

I only have a few minutes, here, but I do have to say that I have lost all trust in the bullies and the scandal-mongers, at this point.

I was reading David Broder's characterization of Harry Reid as "The Democrats' Gonzalez," with the implication that the next head that needs to roll is Harry Reid's. And I finally realized that I just could give two shits, anymore, about what consequences befall me from the various political bullies I encounter and whether or not they forgive me my mistakes. They are unrepentant shitheads. And I want nothing to do with them, anymore. I don't trust their leadership, I don't trust their thinking, I don't trust their instincts, and I sure as hell don't trust them to be honest, with me or with themselves, anymore.

I don't like Harry Reid. But I am far past fed up with people pretending like this ugly scandal-mongering period is something better than it is or that those initiating it or promoting it are better than they really are. They aren't. And I'm tired of pretending otherwise. I can't predict, anymore, how I will be treated. It is wholly arbitrary, at this point, since force and even the rules, at least in my field, are completely dependent on who decides to force what and noone gives two shits about what is possible or within our capabilities or not. And I just don't care, anymore.

I tried, in the last couple of weeks, to understand my principal and vice principal better. I tried. I thought I understood for awhile. And then I realized that its wholly a guessing game. There just is no sense in trying to understand people who don't make any effort to understand you. And I sure as hell can't respect anyone who behaves that way. So I've just kind of lost respect for and trust in my administrators and I've decided that I have no interest in trying to understand the motives of people who are hell-bent on taking me down or anyone else down that disagree with them. There is no integrity in that position. And I have no interest in pretending, anymore, that there is.

Force doesn't teach anyone anything, is the truth. It can protect us in extreme situations. Other than that, it is generally self-serving. And there is no reason that anyone should respect or look after the interests of someone who is only looking after their own.

All we can do in life is learn the lessons that are there to be learned. Force is generally a distraction from these, unless someone's immediate safety it in danger. Other than that, it is something to be put up with until you can get to the lesson.

And, as a rule, at this point, those who believe that force accomplishes more than that do not have my confidence anymore. I will listen to them. But I cannot continue to listen to people persistently rationalize what shitheads they are and pretend that they are somehow being better than they are.

I generally try to follow the rules to the best of my ability as a matter of conscience, at this point in my life. It is not always possible. That is why rules are an impractical way to rule as much as a bankrupt philosophy of goverance. And being strong-armed every which way from Tuesday has finally just sapped me of whatever confidence or trust that I used to have in those who regularly use it to get what they want.

That is the quite natural consequence from this foolish, foolish period and this foolish, foolish and bankrupt philosophy of governance.

If you think differently, you better have a really goddamned good argument. Because I've not heard one. And my assessment, at this point, is that it is, generally, one long rationalization for what complete shitheads people are.

Force away, I say. But I don't take your ideas seriously, anymore. You can compel behavior, temporarily. But, inside, I just think you're a foolish, self-centered, and mean-spirited shithead. And I don't give a shit whether people think that is fair or not. Life is not fair. Get used to it.

Or come up with a better argument. I think I've waited for a better argument for long enough. If the advocates of force don't have one, be prepared for a big fall here very, very soon.

And don't expect any pity from me.

Love,
Ben