Resignation

I think I've finally succumbed.

I am now resigned teacher. Resignation is a softer version of jadedness.

I just don't care anymore.

Who would have guessed that it would be liberals who would beat the idealism out of me?

Defeated

Today I don't feel anything, really.

I just feel defeated. I'm preoccupied. I'm less energetic and proactive.

All in the name of being under someone's thumb.

But I feel no impetus to do more or better work.

I just feel defeated.

And I don't care anymore about anything, including whether my bosses recognize that their efforts have been counterproductive.

Forced choice

I had a clarifying moment, today, when my principal created as social scientists might call a forced choice.

Either go with the pressure and force as the governing philosophy of interactions between people or don't.

And like the vast majority of my kids and the teachers I work with I'm choosing not.

Love,
Ben