There's this girl I've been thinking about...

I have this girl I've been kind of interested in, at school...

Last Friday we sat and talked for about a half an hour at our cars after our weekly trip to the nearby bar, Hoops...

She's a sweety, this girl...she's a math major...and a math teacher...she doesn't know what she wants to do with her life, but she gets a feeling of satisfaction and purpose out of working at our little inner city middle school...

I've encouraged her to become an economist...to use her math smarts for something bigger...as well as being a teacher, of course:):)...I'm learning to encourage the moon from everyone I see...especially someone who might have interest in a life of the mind, but who just lacks the confidence...

In the meantime...I think she likes me...

She's young...she's 23 or 24 (I'm not clear on that one, yet)...she's, by far, the smartest and most confident and most mature and socially aware of the teachers at Eisenhower and of the women that I hang out with regularly...who are often married, at my age...

So being 23 or 24...I think she's nervous, for reasons I completely understand, about taking on what would likely be a very serious relationship...at an age when she's not sure if she's ready to commit...

But it's nice to have intelligent and committed and purposeful conversation with a girl, again...and it's nice to talk with someone, again, who values people more than things...I'm sure, seeing the choices that other girlfriends I've had (I'm speaking broadly, here, rather than just the girls I've dated) that money will be a temptation to her...which I can't offer, right now...it's a temptation that it seems fewer girls than not, at my age, pass up, when they have the chance...though perhaps I'm just being cynical:):)...

Which is fine with me...because while I am fine with greed -- meaning when people value money over other people or over love or over something more important -- and think people should embrace it in themselves...

I'm looking for something better in a woman...so if this girl can't offer it, I'll look elsewhere...not all women live their lives like that...and I have no interest in settling for one who does...

This girl does have a lot of the qualities of someone who might be able to successfully pass up the temptation...

It'd be nice to find a woman who I might actually be able to fall in love with because she really believes in love...for real...they're rare in this age range, I'm learning...

Sadly...

So many women get jaded by bad experiences with love...and I just want to find one who can challenge and support me...and who believes in love...or can believe in love, when the time is right...

In the meantime...she's a friend...and one I can talk with intelligently...and have someone who can half-way keep up...and challenge and support me, too...

I've got errands to run...

Have a great week, everyone:):)...

Love,
Ben