Sad, foolish, and all too human
Ironically, for all of the swagger and bluster of tough characters in the world, the source of repression and inhumanity, since the beginning of humanity, has always been weakness.
Zimbabwean leader's reality: Mugabe is Right
Emotional weakness. Pride. The cowardice, unwillingness, and failure to face oneself and one's failures and mistakes honestly and with forgiveness for ourselves and for others for the pain that we and others have inflicted and experienced.
"Robert Mugabe's mother told him when he was a child that he had been chosen by God to be a great leader. No wonder he thinks only divine power — not elections, not foreign critics, not a crumbling economy or a much younger opposition leader — can unseat him.
In the mind of Zimbabwe's leader of nearly three decades, reality is summed up by a massive banner hanging in the entrance to the presidential offices: Mugabe is Right...
Robert Mugabe's mother told him when he was a child that he had been chosen by God to be a great leader. No wonder he thinks only divine power — not elections, not foreign critics, not a crumbling economy or a much younger opposition leader — can unseat him.
In the mind of Zimbabwe's leader of nearly three decades, reality is summed up by a massive banner hanging in the entrance to the presidential offices: Mugabe is Right.
Heidi Holland, who recounts the anecdote about God's chosen one in her recently published book 'Dinner with Mugabe,' says Zimbabwe's leader is an 'emotionally weak man' who's never come to terms with some of life's earlier disappointments.
He has never forgiven the father who abandoned him when he was 10 to the women in the family — a heathen grandmother and an over-pious mother converted to Catholicism who proudly gave her son into the care of Jesuit priests at nearby Kutama mission. There, Mugabe found a surrogate father in Anglo-Irish headmaster the Rev. Jerome O'Hea.
To this day Mugabe models himself on a British gentleman — dark lounge suits, silk ties and handkerchiefs, a fondness for tea and cricket.
Holland said Mugabe was likely humiliated in the past week when Queen Elizabeth II stripped him of the honorary knighthood bestowed in 1994 when he was an anti-colonial hero.
Yet it is Britain that Mugabe has chosen to demonize, accusing the former colonizer of wanting his southern African nation back.
'When you hear Mugabe vilifying Britain, expressing hatred of Britain, underlying that is a love of Britain,"'said Holland, a Zimbabwean journalist living in South Africa who won a rare interview with Mugabe in November, meeting with him for 2 1/2 hours.
She did not think he was crazy, but 'lives in the world in a mad kind of way. But I think it's deliberate, I think he's in denial, I think he can't face what he's done in Zimbabwe because that isn't what he intended to do. He did genuinely, I think, want be the savior of his people, the liberator of an oppressed nation. What has happened is a source of deep pain to him, I think.'
Mugabe still is bitter, Holland says, that the white Rhodesian regime refused to allow him out of jail, where he was a political prisoner for 11 years, to attend the funeral of his only son with his first wife, Ghanaian fellow teacher Sally Hayfron.
Even as a child, Mugabe could not bear to be criticized, she said. He was a loner with his head constantly stuck in a book and an astute scholar who earned six degrees while he was in jail...
Chenjerai Hove, a Zimbabwean poet, novelist and essayist who fled Mugabe's regime, says whenever Mugabe is challenged 'he becomes a wounded lion and goes on the attack.'
Those who have failed to see that pattern chose 'to look the other way while the man was busy showing his dictatorial tendencies,' says Hove, a writer in resident at Brown University.
Back in 1976, when Mugabe fled Rhodesia to take control of the war for black rule from Mozambique, 'a lot of people were arrested and tortured for him to be accepted as a leader, so his cruel past started at that time, and he has always worked like that,' Hove said.
When Mugabe's leadership was challenged after independence in 1980 by disgruntled military leaders of rival liberation leader Joshua Nkomo's movement, Mugabe sent his North Korean-trained elite Fifth Brigade on a rampage against Nkomo's minority Ndebele tribe. Some 20,000 people, most innocent civilians, were killed. Thousands starved to death as Mugabe withheld international drought relief from Ndebele civilians.
'This is a man who does not forgive ... I think it's about revenge ... He now knows that his own people don't want him.'"
Sounds like a very accurate portrait of what I would expect from a man like this. It's the reason that repressive characters demean compassion, decency, forgiveness, and humanity.
Because it means facing themselves honestly. And doing that is too painful for their fragile egos.
Facing ourselves honestly is painful for everyone. Most, likely all, people in the world, since the beginning of humanity, have struggled facing themselves honestly. It is difficult and painful effort. It is made more difficult and painful by our efforts to repress and harm one another rather than contain people who are dangerous and make good faith efforts to engage and lead people to take honest responsibility for themselves and their actions.
It is this failure that has been the source for our illiberal, undemocratic, and ugly and bitter past. Repression makes facing this failure and all failures more difficult because it adds to the pain load that emotionally fragile egos already fail to come to terms with. And the legacy of repression is a legacy of weak and fragile egos failing to come to terms with that fact of life and their role in creating and prolonging much needless tragedy in the world.
It is ironic that the false heroes that humanity has forever turned to in the name of strength and courage have always, in fact, been figures of enormous emotional weakness and cowardice. Hitler, Mussolini, Stalin, Mao, Castro, Jong Il, Ahmadinejad, Hussein, Mugabe. But also American, British, French, German, Japanese, Spanish, Russian, Canadian, and other leaders the world over and since the beginning of humanity. It is more common than not, really, is the truth. As is our persistent and tragic rationalizations for their repressive behavior and our own that has led to our ugliest and most destructive legacies.
The source of humanity's repression and inhumanity has always been our weakness, our emotional weakness and cowardice to face, honestly, and take responsibility for our inhumanity and its consequences.
It is the saddest of ironies, since repression was originally meant to facilitate resposibility in the face of humanity's sinfulness and proclivity to making even the most serious mistakes.
And humanity, today, and till the end of time, faces a fundamental choice:
Will we face, honestly, our inhumanity, its consequences, and the repression that breeds it? Or will we continue to face the consequences without facing our responsibility in those consequences, and thus continue down this self-fulfilling prophecy of force, violence, tragedy, mayhem, and destruction till the end of time.
One thing is for sure.
Whether we take responsibility for this legacy and its consequences or not, we are responsible for it and its consquences. And no amount of denial, today or ever, will make that go away. It will simply put off the inevitable and tragic reflection by our peers and our progeny on what sad, destructive fools we are and have been.
How sad that we would accept that fate rather than expect better from ourselves. How sad that we would accept cowardice as our legacy rather than genuine courage.
It cannot and will not go on forever. We are not so cowardly and foolish as all that.
But how sad that we would even consider a fate so cowardly and needlessly tragic because we cannot offer up the one thing that we say that all that repression is meant to elicit: responsibility.
I am most certainly sorry for everything that I have ever or still might contribute to that legacy, in my own life. I have been responsible for plenty of harm, in my own life. We all have. And I am sorry for everything that I've contributed to that ugly legacy.
It is now up to the consciences of each and everyone in this sad, foolish, and forgivable species of humanity to bring that kind of strength and courage to the world and to their and our lives.
And then, and only then, can this sad, foolish, and all too human legacy end.
Give us strength.

